Running my own business scares me every day.
Starting a business is so easy. You can just pop on to Companies House, pay a small fee and off you go. You’ve got your own business! Easy Peasy. Maybe I’m missing something but it just never seems that easy in practice.
When I was setting up Fay’s at Riverside I doubted myself every day. Have I chosen the right colour tiles, is the location too far out of town, why had I painted that table leg blue, is beetroot in a chocolate cake really a good idea? The list goes on.
My biggest fear then, continues to be my biggest fear now. I don’t want to let anyone down.
I don’t want to let my family down who worked so hard to build up Fay’s when I was growing up and did just the most amazing job. I now have the ability to ruin that by not doing a good job with the current Fay’s and that sometimes feel like a big responsibility.
I don’t want to let me team down, I want to keep their jobs secure and I want to make sure they are happy coming into work. I want them to love what they do and have a great time together they bloomin’ deserve it.
I don’t want to let my customers down on a small or big scale because I will go home and dwell on the fact that I forgot to give table number 4 a napkin & maybe I didn’t make the lady that ordered the turkey and avocado bagel realise how happy she made me.
I don’t want to let my cats down because I share ALL my business thoughts, ideas and plans with them and I know they would be bitterly disappointed if things don’t work out. Especially Maverick, he’s all about the five year plan.
I don’t want to let myself down because its only me that knows how I want things to be, what my real goals are and so its me that know if I’m on my way to achieving that.
So I guess I spend most of my days just trying to not let people down and to do my best to make things as good as I can. It’s what motivates me and I get such a buzz by giving people a good experience when they come into the shop, by having a team who enjoy their jobs and by hopefully making my family proud. I think you have to care if you have your own business. To do it day in and day out. I really, really care and I will never stop trying to make things better and to achieve new things and things that improve what we already have.
For those of you that know me well you will also know I love a challenge – see previous blog posts! I love to work hard, I love to be tested and I love to achieve things that I never thought I was capable of. I also love rice krispies but I’ll save that for another time.
So, when I have been in discussions over opening a second coffee shop over the past few months I have weighed up all the above a million times.
Will having a second place mean I let someone down? Is there more chance of me letting my family down with a second place? Will I let myself down? I don’t know the answer to any of these questions but I do know that I’m going to try my absolute best not to. I know I’m going to work extra hard to make sure that having a second place is an opportunity to achieve more, to test myself, to make myself proud, to make my team proud of the things that we achieve together.
So I’m excited, scared, nervous and proud to let you all know that we now have a second Fays based at the wonderful Star Rowing club along our beautiful river. We officially open to the public on Monday 18th March and you are all so very welcome.
I hope you love it as much as I do.